A Challenge? I think yes!

So I'm really happy with where my life is right now... I didn't realize how unhappy I was until I became happy again. I'm starting to see life in a totally new way, and it is refreshing! So with this new happiness I am going to try something I've never done before: I'm going to do and say everything I want to. I don't mean that in a bratty teenager way, I mean I'm going to be brave and tell people what I'm thinking. I'm going to take chances that could totally make a huge difference! No more sitting and hoping things happen without any initiative, I'm going to take charge. I'm also going to do things I've never done before. I want to play paintball, and ride a roller coaster, and get a tattoo, and get in the car and go somewhere I've never been before. I'm going to do it. No more restraints. Life will be fun for a change, I'm sick of being afraid of everything... I've already started a couple of those things, and I feel great! I can't wait to see what happens next! I hope everyone that reads this does something new and exciting just for the fun of it, you know you want to :)




As a footnote, I just want to say that I wasn't depressed or sad this last year, just blah. Don't freak out!

Moving Forward.

Today has been surprisingly inspirational. Thank you C.J. for always making me feel good about myself, I wish you could know how much you help me.


I rediscovered a music heaven today. I feel so peaceful and hopeful while surrounded by this music. I wish I could go back to Austin and do exactly what I want to do the entire time. Have breakfast at a hippie joint, enjoy a nice morning at Waterloo records, lunch at a health foods store, an afternoon of art galleries and vintage shoppes, and maybe even hang out with some of the sidewalk folk. What a day that would be. Anybody want to go to Austin and spend my perfect day with me?


Someday I will be content.


"Is there a home for the homeless?
Is there for hope for the hopeless?"




My favorite painting by my favorite artist.
"The Scream" by Edvard Munch.
One of my goals in life is to see this painting and his many other masterpieces at his museum in Norway.
For some reason when I see this picture I feel peaceful.

Book People

I was walking the streets of Austin when I came across a sign that said: "BOOK PEOPLE PRESENTS JOHN KRASINSKI" What did I do? I ran to Book People of course! I got there just in time, John Krasinski, or Jim Halpert from The Office, was about to start a book reading. I would just like to say that this was a dream come true for me. It was the coolest thing seeing him walk down the stairs, he is exactly the same in person as he is on television. He was reading from a book that he made into a movie, Brief interviews with hideous men. After hearing him talk about the book I really hope that this movie comes to Dallas, it sounds awesome! Go to my facebook page if you would like to watch a couple of video clips, it was awesome!

More music stuff...

Like everyone else on this planet, I love Coldplay. I love that they are from London, I love how they mix acoustic guitars and pianos, I love how when I listen to their songs I feel like I am in the last scene of a movie, and I love how the love that their lyrics are painfully romantic, but in a poetic way. My favorite song has always been "Swallowed in the Sea" but as of two weeks ago I have a new number one... "Til Kingdom Come". WOW! What a song, so amazing. Everything there is to love about Coldplay is in this song. Read the lyrics, download the song, fall in love.


Til Kingdom Come

Still my heart and hold my tongue
I feel my time
My time has come
Let me in
Unlock the door
I never felt this way before

And the wheels just keep on turning
The drummer begins to drum
I don’t know which way I’m going
I don’t know which way I’ve come

Hold my head inside your hands
I need someone who understands
I need someone, someone who hears
For you I’ve waited all these years

For you I’d wait 'til kingdom come
Until my day, my day is done
And say you'll come and set me free
Just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me

In your tears and in your blood
In your fire and in your flood
I hear you laugh, I heard you sing
I wouldn’t change a single thing
And the wheels just keep on turning
The drummers begin to drum
I don’t know which way I’m going
I don’t know what I’ve become

For you I’d wait 'til kingdom come
Until my days, my days are done
And say you'll come and set me free
Just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me
Just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me
Just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me

My New Love...

Michael Bublé... enough said.

I don't know where he's been all my life but I am so into his music right now. If you haven't heard his new single, go listen to it now!! Seriously.

I've Come to Realize...

1. I've come to realize that, my last good-bye kiss: was from a dog.


2. I've come to realize that, I talk: in a way that people don't understand.


3. I've come to realize that, I like: British Indie Rock bands.


4. I've come to realize that, I have: too much time on my hands.


5. I've come to realize that, I've lost: hope in a lot of people.


6. I've come to realize that, I hate it when: people don't take the time to understand.


7. I've come to realize that, Marriage is: holy and wonderful... hopefully some day I will experience it.


8. I've come to realize that, somewhere, someone is thinking: the same thing as me.


9. I've come to realize that, I'll always: be crazy to someone.


11. I've come to realize that, the last time I truly cried was: to a Whitney Houston song... lame.


12. I've come to realize that, my cell phone: is a necessary evil.


14. I've come to realize that, before I go to sleep at night: I fantasize about a different life.


15. I've come to realize that, right now I am thinking about: moving to Austin without telling anyone.


16. I've come to realize that, babies: are a gift from God.


17. I've come to realize that, I go shopping: as little as possible.


18. I've come to realize that, today: I am more relaxed than usual... thank you Eddie Vedder.


19. I've come to realize that, tonight I will: go to sleep listening to Rod Stewart and Guster.


20. I've come to realize that, tomorrow I will: go to church and try to watch 6 hours of Dexter.


21. I've come to realize that, I really want: to be around people who like the same music as me, the same movies as me, who care about the same things as me, and people who can challenge me.

The Hippie in Me

My whole life I have wondered why I was born in 1990 and not 1950. I wish I could have experienced things like Woodstock, the summer of love, and the birth of skateboarding. I've always thought that our generation is deprived of real culture... what will people remember about us? I was goofing off with google again today and discovered what may be the most amazing thing of the 2000's... Bonnaroo. Every summer there is a festival where in Manchester, Tennessee where hippies and indies like me unite. I want to go so bad! I want to be around people like me! The lineup isn't posted yet or even the dates, but you can bet that me and my little sunfire are going to be there. Anybody with me?